The Moments of Agony

I am intrigued to believe that a Bush has the power and the will to destroy this universe. Can really a man destroy this ALL? If this man in the White House was to engulf the vast universe why, then, it took billions of years for the world to advance and work and research to perfect human knowledge? Was there no purpose behind all the scientific enterprise? Or there were some “bad guys”, we are told; or there was a Satan who instigate or simply: ‘sin is a basic gene’? If that were so, I wonder what happened to LOVE? Isn’t Love a basic element? Are we to hold that this creation is the result of SIN and not of Love? And what for our Saviour had to be born out of wedlock? from the womb of a virgin Mary? Let them condemn me for hearsay, but I uphold LOVE as the basic source of creation, and I am a free agent of my acts. And the saviour of My-Self do not hesitate to take birth from love.

But the problem is not that I take birth but to know what is it that takes birth? Is there something as Eternal, Soul, which is supposedly indestructible? And if Soul is, then, what happens to It. (a soul cannot be classified as male or female) when I – as a unit of mind and body – am not there? And here, I am more concerned with the question as what happened to Stalins, Hitlers, Tojos, and Trumans (who ordered Atomic bombing of innocent civilians of Hiroshima and Nagasaki)? Do such souls get away with all those heinous acts of crimes committed legally or illegally? What happens to the Churchillian soul – the soul of the Hero of WW II who sent tens of thousands of innocents to jail including the messiah of Peace, a fragile saint Gandhi? The Churchill – who ordered firing and bombing of thousands of unarmed peoples of Asia and Africa? Will there be a Nuremberg – Trial for those who commit the same illegal acts as those who lost the wars?

What constitutes legality of an act? Is there really a Law which is not arbitrary and true for all? What do we mean by a-l-l ? If it means all men (of course, I include our women) it precludes non-human-world. How can, then, a law be true which does not extend to all living being? A white man’s law tends to ignore the interest of non-whites; a Russian law does not protect the interest of a German. The shariat does not apply to non-muslims. In the same manner, human laws tend to cover no interest of other living creatures. Then, the question arises: What is that law that rules over mind and matter, and every living and non-living? Only such a law – a universal and cosmic law is a true law which is applicable to all and everything, which is without fear and favour, and is TRUE.

What is True? Is that what is called Real? Is it that which is commonly termed as REALITY. But we are not sure if we do have right means to determine Real and Un-real. Are these concepts merely relative? If A is real, only then, in relation to A, B is not A. And what is the use of all this knowing and investigating, when I have only yesterday sent my premium for the Life policy. Is there no way out of this agony? “In God We Trust”, would not save us a premium on Death Insurance.
Interestingly, Islamic Jihadis – and the fanatic martyrs always assure a Paradise Insurance Policy issued by Mullahs and verified by the Bin Laden & Co. to secure a seat in the Theatre of Almighty, next to divine virgins in the Koranic paradise.

Oh, no! yogi or bhogi, you pray or not pray, trust in Him or in Karl Marx, act or not to act, know the truth or live in ignorance, -- makes no difference to your end. Behold, All Mighty Dollar is after all not all that All Mighty. Multi-billion-dollar-worth nuclear arsenal is not that protective. Our scientific truths are not all that scientific, our priests, our faiths, churches, temples, and mosques – are not all that true to save us from the cosmic cycle.

If I cannot win, all right, then, let me prolong the game with Death. Let me live a few more years, days, hours, a few more breaths of these comforts even if by pills and shots, and then, let Nature take its course. My struggle is over; I am exhausted. Let there be Peace, “Om Shanti”.

While I attempt to escape – every act and moment of my every breath pulls me towards that end; every pleasant sensation, every early breeze, every dawn, consumes me, brings me nearer; every new invention adds to greater hazard to my physical existence. Every breath leads to its own culmination. Breath, verily, pervades. Food, verily, sustains. (prano vai brahmah. Annam vai brahmah). But for how long? After that, what..?

While it is dark in some parts of this world, I am awake. Oh, tell me What is Truth? “What is that which being known, everything else become known?” [The Mundaka Upanishad, I.i.3]

Oh, tell me What is that Act which is Right according to the Cosmic Law? I know not :

Lead me from untruth to truth. Asato ma sad-gamaya.
Lead me from Darkness to Light. Tamaso ma jyotir gamaya.
Lead me from Death to Immortality. Mrtyor ma amritam gamaya.
[ ---- The Upanishad ---- ]